*Freedom is having the knowledge, the relationships and the opportunities to be all that you were created to be.
I woke up this morning and I felt Peace. I don’t know how or why or when. But I do know Who made it happen. It always mystifies me how He always intended for us to live free without worries and just depend on Him and seek Him first and all these things shall be given unto us. But we find it SO DARN DIFFICULT TO JUST LET GO!
Well I sometimes do at least=(.
Last week when I was musing over random thoughts in my head, an experience from my recent summer holidays back in KL stood out.
It was a balmy January night when my younger siblings and I thought it would be fun if I wore their high school uniform and went to their high school for a day just because…
As I stood there looking around at the students consumed by the school authorities, social circles, sports, societies, etc, I felt a delicious feeling of Glee. I didn’t quite belong there, you see.=) I can be there physically but I know that there’s so much beyond high school and everything it encompasses. Sure, they can tell me I can only tie my hair in blue or black, or to pull my socks up, or that I’m only allowed to wear one pair of earrings. But I have a Choice not to and they can’t do anything about it so there muahahaha.
I can of course, use this as a passport to openly rebel and defy their authority but why would I do such a thing? Knowledge that I don’t need to abide by their rules and that I belong with the biggest authority imaginable is Freedom enough. So everyday, I struggle because there are so many authorities over us!; systems, social circles, obligations, etc.
But sometimes oh sometimes, on days such as these, I am able to feel at peace because I know we were made to be Free.
Friday, 27 June 2008
Wednesday, 25 June 2008
in the rut.
These couple of weeks has undoubtedly been one of the worst couple of weeks in year 2008. Yup, it has been sh*t. (sorry mummy! i know you don't like me to say shi*t but i can't help because it really has been sh*t please forgive me)
*spoilers for the movie Becoming Jane ahead. Please discontinue reading if have not but planning to watch the aforementioned movie*
After a bad day last Sunday, I decided to unwind and chill alone at home with a movie followed by an early night to rejuvenate myself for the week ahead. The pick was Becoming Jane starring Anne Hathaway and James McAvoy given to me by my dear Janice Tan from work. As I progressed further into the movie, it slowly dawned upon me that I have made A HUGE MISTAKE watching it. After the movie when I went to the toilet, the face in the mirror with swollen eyes and a red nose staring back at me confirmed my fears.
My early night was scorned as well because I just couldn't get the movie out of my head!!! SO I spent the night tossing and turning wondering why oh why can't everyone have happy endings forevermore.=S Well, it's no surprise that I woke up sleepy, grumpy, sulky and dissatisfied.
OHO you'd think that was bad enough but no. The night ahead (how it's possible is beyond me) was even worse. I did 2 loads of laundry in 2 separate washing machines and in the midst of rinsing, the water supply died on me thus leaving me with 2 full loads of soaked laundry to wring with my bare hands.
At this point I texted Sue-Lee proclaiming that I'm a mess=( To which she replied, "You're not a mess darl. Your washing machine just broke down.=)" And that just snapped me back into perspective. It's so curious how easy and natural it is that when you've had a couple of bad days with bad events accumulating consecutively, to start wallowing in self pity and start spiralling off in the shame blame game.
Thank you Sue Lee dear, for snapping me out of it=) You are an amazing woman.
*spoilers for the movie Becoming Jane ahead. Please discontinue reading if have not but planning to watch the aforementioned movie*
After a bad day last Sunday, I decided to unwind and chill alone at home with a movie followed by an early night to rejuvenate myself for the week ahead. The pick was Becoming Jane starring Anne Hathaway and James McAvoy given to me by my dear Janice Tan from work. As I progressed further into the movie, it slowly dawned upon me that I have made A HUGE MISTAKE watching it. After the movie when I went to the toilet, the face in the mirror with swollen eyes and a red nose staring back at me confirmed my fears.
My early night was scorned as well because I just couldn't get the movie out of my head!!! SO I spent the night tossing and turning wondering why oh why can't everyone have happy endings forevermore.=S Well, it's no surprise that I woke up sleepy, grumpy, sulky and dissatisfied.
OHO you'd think that was bad enough but no. The night ahead (how it's possible is beyond me) was even worse. I did 2 loads of laundry in 2 separate washing machines and in the midst of rinsing, the water supply died on me thus leaving me with 2 full loads of soaked laundry to wring with my bare hands.
At this point I texted Sue-Lee proclaiming that I'm a mess=( To which she replied, "You're not a mess darl. Your washing machine just broke down.=)" And that just snapped me back into perspective. It's so curious how easy and natural it is that when you've had a couple of bad days with bad events accumulating consecutively, to start wallowing in self pity and start spiralling off in the shame blame game.
Thank you Sue Lee dear, for snapping me out of it=) You are an amazing woman.
Tuesday, 17 June 2008
my ipod and i.
I’ve always heard of blogs being tagged but have never experienced it for myself. So when I chanced upon Sarah’s and Samantha’s blog, it was too good an opportunity to pass up and so…. I tagged myself!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA..ha….haa… *sob*=(
The Measure of How Well Your iPod Really Knows You
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.
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1. How are you feeling today?
Everything by Michael Buble
Well I did have a little bounce in my step today.=)
2. Will you get far in life?
Have a Little Faith in Me by Mandy Moore
I know you do. And I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. You all know who you are.
3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
You and Me by Lifehouse
Really?? I never knew.
4. What is the story of your life?
Destiny by Jim Brickman and Martina Mcbride
Hokay…
5. What was school like?
You’ll Think of Me by Keith Urban
With the amount of trouble we got into, yes SMDU, perhaps you do still think of us. Afterall, we were the high school mafia girl gang=p
6. How can you get ahead with life?
Once in a Lifetime by Craig David
Seize opportunities!! TAKE RISKS Nadia you chicken.=S
7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
I am Your Angel by Celine Dion and R. Kelly
Really you are.
8. Describe your grandparents.
Here is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls
But why does it have to be so??
9. How’s your life going?
God Bless the Broken Road by Carrie Underwood
Amen.
10. What will be played at my funeral?
You Never Know Jim Brickman Instrumental
How true! I've never thought about it before.
11. Will you have a happy life?
Real Life Fairytale by Plumb
That would be nice=)
12. What do your friends really think of you?
Far Away by Nickelback
I am far away indeed! To my high-school mafia gang and Pheebs I miss you all so much. Lately I’ve been so homesick. Lousy Lim Kar Mern! Send me picture of you all and Pheebs for what? I almost bawled in the office looking at it okay????????!!!!!!!
13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Unwell by Matchbox 20
Oh dear… I take that as a no then...
14. How can you make yourself happy?
If I Am by Nine Days
hahaha. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side hey?
15. Will you ever have children?
Someday We’ll Know by Mandy Moore and Jonathan Foreman
Couldn't have said it better myself.
16. What song would you strip to?
Butterfly by Mariah Carey
OkayY... if you say so.
17. What does your mom think of you?
All Cried Out by Allure
Really mummy??=( But it could be tears of joy...no? *fingers crossed*
18. What is your deep, dark secret?
I Wanna Be With You by Mandy Moore
Hmm…
19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Remember Me This Way by Jordan Hill
Oh I remember you alright.
20. What’s your personality like?
Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion
And for that, I am truly grateful.
21. What will be played at your wedding?
Sway by Pussycat Dolls
I daresay it will!
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All in all I'd say, my iPod and me? We're buddies!=)
I tag you readers of my blog who have ipods, irivers, iwhatevers. Have a good time. It's really fun!!
The Measure of How Well Your iPod Really Knows You
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.
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1. How are you feeling today?
Everything by Michael Buble
Well I did have a little bounce in my step today.=)
2. Will you get far in life?
Have a Little Faith in Me by Mandy Moore
I know you do. And I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. You all know who you are.
3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
You and Me by Lifehouse
Really?? I never knew.
4. What is the story of your life?
Destiny by Jim Brickman and Martina Mcbride
Hokay…
5. What was school like?
You’ll Think of Me by Keith Urban
With the amount of trouble we got into, yes SMDU, perhaps you do still think of us. Afterall, we were the high school mafia girl gang=p
6. How can you get ahead with life?
Once in a Lifetime by Craig David
Seize opportunities!! TAKE RISKS Nadia you chicken.=S
7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
I am Your Angel by Celine Dion and R. Kelly
Really you are.
8. Describe your grandparents.
Here is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls
But why does it have to be so??
9. How’s your life going?
God Bless the Broken Road by Carrie Underwood
Amen.
10. What will be played at my funeral?
You Never Know Jim Brickman Instrumental
How true! I've never thought about it before.
11. Will you have a happy life?
Real Life Fairytale by Plumb
That would be nice=)
12. What do your friends really think of you?
Far Away by Nickelback
I am far away indeed! To my high-school mafia gang and Pheebs I miss you all so much. Lately I’ve been so homesick. Lousy Lim Kar Mern! Send me picture of you all and Pheebs for what? I almost bawled in the office looking at it okay????????!!!!!!!
13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Unwell by Matchbox 20
Oh dear… I take that as a no then...
14. How can you make yourself happy?
If I Am by Nine Days
hahaha. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side hey?
15. Will you ever have children?
Someday We’ll Know by Mandy Moore and Jonathan Foreman
Couldn't have said it better myself.
16. What song would you strip to?
Butterfly by Mariah Carey
OkayY... if you say so.
17. What does your mom think of you?
All Cried Out by Allure
Really mummy??=( But it could be tears of joy...no? *fingers crossed*
18. What is your deep, dark secret?
I Wanna Be With You by Mandy Moore
Hmm…
19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Remember Me This Way by Jordan Hill
Oh I remember you alright.
20. What’s your personality like?
Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion
And for that, I am truly grateful.
21. What will be played at your wedding?
Sway by Pussycat Dolls
I daresay it will!
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All in all I'd say, my iPod and me? We're buddies!=)
I tag you readers of my blog who have ipods, irivers, iwhatevers. Have a good time. It's really fun!!
Saturday, 7 June 2008
Friday, 6 June 2008
favourites.
A couple of weeks ago, we were presented with the best task in the world. Babysitting Samuel Siow for the whole Sunday afternoon! Seriously, 8 adults + the cutest boy in the world = ONE OVERLOVED CUTEST BOY IN THE WORLD.
And also, I went for the Michael Buble concert=) It was really really good! Mr. Buble had the crowd at his fingertips the instant he walked on stage. With his boyish charm, slightly-insulting-but-very-funny jokes and sexy voice, how la to not fall in love with him you tell me??
It was a clip out of a movie. Hot superstar goes on stage, hot superstar winks at the girls, hot superstar gets off stage to hi-five the crowd, hot superstar picks one starstruck girl, starstruck girl hugs and squeezes hot superstar's butt for the world to see.
It was tremendously entertaining!!!
So I have concluded that my 2 favourite guys at present are Michael Buble and Samuel Siow. Except that neither really acknowledges my existence=( Oh life...
And also, I went for the Michael Buble concert=) It was really really good! Mr. Buble had the crowd at his fingertips the instant he walked on stage. With his boyish charm, slightly-insulting-but-very-funny jokes and sexy voice, how la to not fall in love with him you tell me??
It was a clip out of a movie. Hot superstar goes on stage, hot superstar winks at the girls, hot superstar gets off stage to hi-five the crowd, hot superstar picks one starstruck girl, starstruck girl hugs and squeezes hot superstar's butt for the world to see.
It was tremendously entertaining!!!
So I have concluded that my 2 favourite guys at present are Michael Buble and Samuel Siow. Except that neither really acknowledges my existence=( Oh life... what can i say.
But that Stephen Lim and Ivy Poh (soon to be Lim) are amazing. Phebe is off to warmer shores for a month and Ivy and Steve being Ivy and Steve has taken it upon themselves to feed me. Guys, I am so overwhelmed by your generosity, your nurturing spirit and your ginormous hearts.
chicken & avocado wrap, bacon, chese & mushroom wrap, lasagne, soup, porridge and loh shi fun
chicken & avocado wrap, bacon, chese & mushroom wrap, lasagne, soup, porridge and loh shi funSunday, 1 June 2008
esther's graduation.
I LOVE LONG WEEKENDS! yeah baby! I took the Friday off!=) And for a very good reason too. Our dear Esther from Hudsons House Church graduated on Friday the 30th of May and I'm very honoured to be invited along with Sue Lee and Bryan to attend the ceremony.
Okay, before I post pictures, I am compelled to clarify a couple of things. Please forgive me pls... Here goes.
I regret to annouce that I have misinformed everyone about Esther being Valedictorian. Allow me to explain how I reached that conclusion in the first place.
Conversation with Esther:
Esther: Hey Nadia, I'm graduating next Friday. Want to come?
Nads: OF COURSE I'll come! When and where?
Esther: Next Friday at Old Arts Building. It's a valedictorian .....(I couldn't hear because church too noisy)
Nads: OH my goodness you're valedictorian??
Esther: (couldn't really hear what she said because church too noisy)
Nads: (In head "graduation + esther + valedictory = ESTHER IS VALEDICTORIAN)
CONGRATS ESTHERRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Esther: err. Okay thanks!!
So yup, that's how I reached the conclusion.=(
Sorry guys! Now for pictures.
Okay, before I post pictures, I am compelled to clarify a couple of things. Please forgive me pls... Here goes.
I regret to annouce that I have misinformed everyone about Esther being Valedictorian. Allow me to explain how I reached that conclusion in the first place.
Conversation with Esther:
Esther: Hey Nadia, I'm graduating next Friday. Want to come?
Nads: OF COURSE I'll come! When and where?
Esther: Next Friday at Old Arts Building. It's a valedictorian .....(I couldn't hear because church too noisy)
Nads: OH my goodness you're valedictorian??
Esther: (couldn't really hear what she said because church too noisy)
Nads: (In head "graduation + esther + valedictory = ESTHER IS VALEDICTORIAN)
CONGRATS ESTHERRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Esther: err. Okay thanks!!
So yup, that's how I reached the conclusion.=(
Sorry guys! Now for pictures.
Me feeling like a proud parent=)
and again
It shines too brightly!
Valedictory Ceremony. Bah. It would look better with Esther as Valedictorian I tell you!
Sue Lee and Esther
Our Esther.
Esther and Bryan
We just can't get enough of Esther. CONGRATULATIONS!!
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